Can you believe it’s the last month of the year already? I know I can’t. With a new year and decade approaching, I’ve been doing a lot of reflecting. There’s a lot I wish I could change about this past year but I’m feeling blessed to be ending it in the position I’m in. I just released my second book, I’m healthy and I’m optimistic about my future.
This year has been full of lessons. I’ve struggled a lotta bit but learned that I have the strength to make it through whatever comes my way. I really surprised the heck outta myself because things, people and situations that could have destroyed me only made me realize my strength and capabilities.
Storytime: My friend Gerb called me the other night and gave me all the motivation I needed to finish the year off strong. He told me that I had a light and that I was different. And he wasn’t just gassing me up for the sake of gassing me either. He’s the kind of friend who calls to check on you every once in a while and prays for you before you get off the phone. He supports your endeavors and shows up for you whenever possible. I not only appreciated his words but I believed them.
Little did Gerb know, he called me at a time when I was in the middle of a borderline meltdown. I was self-reflecting and began to seriously doubt myself because I was worried that the life I had worked very hard for wasn’t turning out as planned. I didn’t understand how or why bad stuff was happening to me. I was on my victim vibe for a little bit and then I decided to grow up and take accountability. Truth be told, you can plan all you want but you have no say-so about how things will turn out. That’s a hard lesson I had to learn in 2019.
“A lot can change in a year…”
I sweaterGAWD if you would have told me I’d be where I’m at now this time last year, I would have slapped you and told you to stop disrespecting me like that. But life has a way of humbling you and forcing you to rethink things when you least expect it. And once you get to rethinking, you may have to make some pretty scary decisions.
Sure, I’ve faced some fears this year but I also realized I’ve been letting fear lead me for far too long. The jobs I’ve taken and the risks I haven’t were all a direct result of the result of limiting beliefs. I thought I needed to do certain things to gain a level of security but learned that I wasn’t very secure at all. I now acknowledge that I can very well lose my job at any moment so I need to start depending and betting on the person who has my best interest at heart: ME.
I am really all about focusing on myself and that’s where my head is right about now. Some may deem it selfish but if I don’t do what’s best for me, who will? Knowing what you want and deserve isn’t a crime. Going after it isn’t either. The only person I can control is me so that’s who I need to be focused on. On a recent podcast episode, I mentioned that I’ll be doing one scary thing a week for the month of December. I’ve done two things I was afraid of so far and this week, I’m working on my third.
Even though I’m telling you about this challenge a couple weeks late, I encourage you to join me. Do something scary this week. Apply for that job you’ve been eyeing. Tell your crush how you feel. Whatever it is you fear has the potential to hold you back. I don’t know about you but I ain’t tryna be held back NO mo!
We’ll chat more soon but for now, let’s chat in the comments section…